we've been having this conversation about Them.

you know, the unidentified scholars of the world that know everything...

"you know, they say you are suppose to wait thirty minutes after you eat before you swim."

"they say that you are suppose to drink 8 glasses of water a day."

well, i am also convinced that it is because of them that i attempt to blend in. don't stick out. its okay for others to blow your horn, but you can't ever admit, yourself, that you are special.

they say that means you are a conceited person.

they say that's how Echo died. How Narcissus died as well.

but i think i might be, well, unique. Or maybe just sleep deprived. here's why.

In bed with the boy (this is PG, i promise!) just randomly talking like we do when we wake up (when i wake him up) randomly at night. I had just drifted off and slipped into a disturbing dream.

a man walked into the apartmet. "do you here that?" "yea" "well, aren't you going to do something?" the man walks into the bedroom, and all i hear is plastic. this squishing plastic rustles as he bends over the bed to grab me...

i slip into a magnified view of the bible. the pages flip backwards past second Timothy to the First Timothy.. verse 5 sticks in my head.

here are the verses.

1 Timothy 1

¹Paul, an apostle of Christ Jesus by the command of God our Savior and of Christ Jesus our hope,

²To Timothy my true son in the faith:
Grace, mercy and peace from God the Father and Christ Jesus our Lord.

Warning Against False Teachers of the Law

³As I urged you when I went into Macedonia, stay there in Ephesus so that you may command certain men not to teach false doctrines any longer ⁴nor to devote themselves to myths and endless genealogies. These promote controversies rather than God's work—which is by faith. ⁵The goal of this command is love, which comes from a pure heart and a good conscience and a sincere faith. ⁶Some have wandered away from these and turned to meaningless talk. ⁷They want to be teachers of the law, but they do not know what they are talking about or what they so confidently affirm.

i remember from my dream something about teaching.

i've never read this book of the bible in my life.

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