ramblings of a sick girl

having strep can drive you crazy...or just give you the space to think.

so i have to stay home until i am done with the meds. imma have a lot of time to think.


like these thoughts -

i've always been under the assumption that we were the revolutionaries. that black people were the ones on the front line doing all the dirt, getting the gold medal of the oppression olympics. but i stumbled upon a movie i saw a loooooooong time ago - the incredible story of two girls in love. leave it to me to notice a side note of the movie - the mail girl, randy, lives with a bunch of women, and they all eat organic. this move was made in 1995. dude, i just GOT on organic. my point is this - when you step out of the mainstream, your always seen as weird, but most of the time, your just way before your time. like 12 years before. and maybe, we - black people, the glbtqia movement, etc - have some thing to learn from each other. maybe one revolution didn't open the doors for another, but our collective pushing got it to budge and we just pulled each other through.

leave it to me to run with a metaphor.

also just got done watching evan almighty - i have NOTHING to do this early in the morning - and learned another valuable lesson. maybe, when you pray to God for something, he doesn't give you what you asked, but the opportunity to achieve. you pray for patience, he gives you a chance to be patient. you pray for strength, he gives you a chance to be strong. he gives you the chance to recognize the God in you.

that makes sense considering how often i've had deja vu lately - like maybe i've lived through something in my own life, then i see a friend going through the same issues, so i get a chance to watch and learn from another perspective. maybe that's whats going on...