the last few months to summer break are always the most difficult months to stay motivated... and recently its been harder and harder to find the meaning that motivates me to do A+ work.  Like tonight, I was a B+/A- mommy; did m's hair, but didn't do any learning activities.  had healthy food, but they were definitely leftovers.

then he had the meltdown of all meltdowns.
i mean snot, kicking, shaking, some screaming...

and here is where i know i was dropped on my head as a kid...


i thought it was hilarious.
absolutely hilarious.

at first, for like 20 seconds, i was angry. then shocked for about 2 seconds.  then i couldn't stop laughing.

that right there - the laughing - is what i think lowered me to a B+.

fast forward.

began to grade a few papers - i just couldn't do it.  it was too painful.  smh

moving on.

finally emailed a few of the people back on the dating website (gasp) that i joined.  but really, i am starting to believe my friends who continue to assert that i am really not going to find a guy, especially a guy of color, in my town.... when you write your entire profile IN ALL CAPS... or u mispell words in an attempt to be kool...or you pose with other women in your profile pictures then crop the photo like idk, i can't tell that you cropped out someone will long/curly/blonde hair and half a boob

...

perhaps
its just time for me to Pinterest until Big Bang. Yep.  That's what I'm going to do.