"If you've violently and vividly taken a detour from the lockstep of the beauty parade, no one can fault you for not being in uniform."
this was the best line from a CNN article i read on learning to love your nose, but it could be on so much more. i broke down, phoned a friend, and hung up so much better.
friendship is such a delicate relationship. and when they end, especially when they've lasted for so long, the damage can be surprisingly resonate. i wondered if i were a good person, a good friend. it had to be my fault, i mean, i am admittedly not a phone person. perhaps i should have called more.
but my friend, my so-much-more-than-a-friend friend said something along the lines of:
"you have never put energy into anything fake. you may talk around with and play with something new, but sooner or later when you realize its just not right/real, you leave it be. and that speak so positively and so loudly about the beauty of your character."
thank you. so. much.
i am a good person. i do care. no, i don't call all the time, but damnit, that doesn't mean i don't care - it just means I'm going to love seeing you that much more then next time we do meet.
i appreciate people - i know the people that i love are amazing people, and i hope they know just how big of a fan i am of them.
so i will stop tolerating negativity - better yet, i will interrupt it whenever i experience it with positivity.
i'm going to go snuggle with my son, then go to bed. sigh. its 10 minutes of a new day - this is such an awesome way to begin it.
smile.
