ups and downs / bang out

i'm graduating. from college.
i have an apartment.
i have a job.

this growing up is crazy.

i finally had The Breakdown a few days ago. it was all bad - was at s and b's b-day party and was struck with the need to be alone. e brought me home, and i could feel the tears starting. its was all ugly after that (i'll spare the details) but it was k, like always, to catch me when i fell. Hard.

i was ready to leave all my sh!t here and just drive until i got home. i was jaded, tired, irritable, scared, scarred...

you name it, i felt it.

he helped me see that you always, always have the Lord to depend on.
and that no matter what others think, you gotta keep folks around you that you feel good being around...