a. being an adult sucks (sometimes) cause you know from what experience you have when and what you should be doing, and all the responsibility falls on you when you don't do that.
like i miss ole boy. but i know i should'nt say that to him because that is a relationship whose doors do not need to be re-opened right now until i am 100% sure exactly where i want to take that.
and i need to tell ole boy #2 that the reason i haven't called him is because he has two kids...
and i should tell ole boy three (pleasedon'tcallpleasedon'tcallmeback) that i probably won't talk to him cause he has a kid....and not because he's white (cause strangely, im good on that now) but because he just seems sketchy. and i need lines in my life. not sketchiness.
and i need to figure out how to just be friends with ole boy four..
(there are a lot of ole boys, no?)
b. im pissed about what i have to do with ole girl. this is not how we started, but people change. im just pissed i pick difficult friendships.
c. i'm starting to believe the stereotypes about black people - that we are all hood, don't go to shcool, can't speak well, all the men are in jail, all the women are baby mamas and are crazy as hell, etc etc. so when i meet someone black who isn't, i have the classic white response "oh! you're so articulate!" damn.
aight, gotta close up shop and get home.
t
don't let the black/ghetto thing get you depressed. It's where you are, here there are a bunch of us so called 'upwardly mobile' black folks. I mean this is why I love DC, sure you can go from hood to haven in a matter of seconds but the majority of the black folks here, that I deal with, are not ghetto and reasonably professional. Sure we have a bit of code switching going back and forth and they are always happy to see such an upwardly mobile sister like myself, handling her business. Most of the folks on my street, where I work know me and are pretty cool. So just let go of that ghetto shit. Dude, you over there. If you look for it, that's what you'll find.
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