lessons in humility and patience

this day didn't start out bad at all.

i woke, felt good, went to text a friend....

phone was turned off.

went online - got the wrong info. went galavanting to friend's house with said wrong info ordering payment on part of our phone bill. discovered 9 hours later that she may have paid my portion.

whoops.

random ass info about a friend that kinda hurt. i know i didn't answer before, but i've changed. how do you convince people that you've changed?
i realized that people are a lot more sensitive and (not negatively) self-absorbed than i thought. we really do think that everything done is concerning us - that lady not responding "hello" to my greeting, that man taking another route (was it to avoid me?) someone not answering the phone (was it becasuse i called?) we really are insecure.

90% of the time, any situation in which you are apart of really, really, does not concern you. great words told to me by someone else, as most wisdom is. all this before work.

went to work, actually had fun because i felt like a manager - unpacking, doing charge sends, etc. left, came home, got restless...

starting eating. i think i have an eating problem - i eat when i am bored, when i am restless, when i am full...and there was no MAYONNAISE!! how can i work under these circumstances? and the depressing part is i might not be able to buy some cause of said goofed phone bill.

damn

(braids kept falling in my face) +too short to pull into a ponytail+too hot in apartment+too expensive to use air=EXTREME ANNOYANCE

went to sleep. phone begins to ring off the hook constantly (its working now?)

wake up. clean like a mad woman.

now at work. realized that phone bill wouldn't be so bad if i actually followed my bill due dates instead of paying whenever...

my bad

now i just feel like an