i keep thinking back over the past 24 hours, and i don't know how to respond - i laugh, then i just shake my head, wonder a little, laugh a little more, and think really, what am i going to do?
can a guy ever really tell the truth?
so, i 've been told by mulitple people that i have a guy's mentality when it comes to dating and sex. so, from as far as i can reach, the only reason a guy might hide something is that he's scared whatever hidden information might put the sex in danger.
with me - naw, not so much. as long as we are on the same page, then its all good.
i don't understand why Truth is so difficult. but this also makes me realize just how much i've grown. one thing i am not feeling is anger - what happen had nothing to do with me, and everything to do with him (as crazy as that shit was). this realization is doing leaps and bounds for my self esteem - i already know i'm worth whatever i could want, even with my issues of trust (those can be eradicated with a healthy relationship). i'm just ...confused? perplexed? what the fuck is the problem?
so for the future, first questions i ask - "are you capable of being honest? being truly 100 with me? cause if not, then this shit can stop right here."
hiding ish is just disrespectful and stupid and created unnecessary drama.
aight, had to get that out so i can get it off my mind.
wipe me down.
(lol)
gotta get back on that grind. get me some new shoes.
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