oh shit...

i'm a teacher!

i just got my books ( all 10 of them. yes ten) and the run down of how class will be. i also met with my mentor, a, who gave me the run down of stl schools, office politics, and being a young black woman in a "society school". One piece of advice sticks with me:

"keep your eyes open, mouth shut, and hold your cards tightly to you".

its really not a game. I'm so excited, but i have to take serious advantage of this opportunity. i have the chance to learn from others mistakes and wisdom, and i am so freakin grateful of that, but i have to remember - this is a game. i gotta stay focused on my goals. i gotta make sure i cover my ass at all times. i have plans, dreams, aspirations - and it feels so weird to finally see them in sight. to know that with some dedication and patience and brilliance i can get there.

i. can. get. there.

i am so freakin proud of myself!! and so thankful of how i got here - through all the bullshit and pain, and with the help of so many, mad love, and patience - i'm here.

*smile*

k, enough reveling. time to get down to business. i got a gazillion chapters to read, and not only that, i gotta find secondary sources, primary sources, make some lesson plans...

*still smiling*

okay...one more piece of giddines - I get a tablet pc! and an office! and benefits! i have health care! and i think i know what i'm doing! and my mentor at school is cool! did i say i know what i'm doing? cause i think i do! IMMA HAVE A LAPTOP BITCHES!

*lol*


( oh! and new music!! black/female house music - the ish. latrice barnett - the new hotness in my life. who knew we did electronica and techno? )

k, im done. for real this time.